Sunday, July 17, 2011

where is my heart?

after having such a mature group of 5th and 6th graders, i was not ready to go back to 1st and 2nd. i was pretty disappointed when i found out that i was placed with them again, but i knew i could do it and that God had a reason so i tried as hard as i could to change my attitude. then monday morning rolled around and i was checking facebook before the morning meeting, only to find out that my darling co-RA Michelle was not going to be able to return to Simpson in the fall. now i know that it may seem trivial to some people, but to me her absence brought so much stress into my already high energy stressful life. the whole time i've been at camp i've been able to but next fall on a back burner in my head and not worry about it because Michelle and i had it worked out and knew we'd do well together and were looking forward to our, i have no idea what is going to happen, and to top it all off - i had 1st and 2nd grade again!

i felt so scared and vulnerable during the meeting, but then i found out that a little girl who has ptsd was coming this week and would be in second grade. i remembered her from last summer and was really nervous that it might be hard for her returning without the her previous counselor being here. since i knew what she was going through and have dealt with it myself, Tiger Lily and i decided that it would be a good idea for her to be in my group. when i met her, she immediately took my hand and became my best friend for the week. her constant smiles and little triumphs throughout the week brought so much joy to my heart that i thought for sure i would explode with love for this precious child. every time she'd put her tiny hand in mine to calm her nerves or every time that she would tell me a story about what she had done the day before or every time that she'd finally feel comfortable enough to let go of my hand and run off to play with the other kids and counselors or participate in the hand motions of a song or allow another child to take my hand, my soul rejoiced for her! she stole my heart so easily and now i don't know where it is...

Monday, July 11, 2011

4th of july - pufflets and sassets

forth of july is here again, and what a week it was! this last week, i had a fantastic group of nine fifth and sixth grade girls. they were such a joy. one of the girls had been in my forth of july week last summer, and she really opened up right away during prayer requests which made the other girls feel really comfortable. we had such a fun time together. they asked meaningful questions and took bible study to deeper discussions about heaven and hell and why we need God's grace. they were so joyful and loving and fun. one of the reasons it was so much fun was that all the fifth and sixth grade girls seemed to be mine and Sassy's girls; there was no separation in their minds that we were in different groups but rather that we all encouraged and loved one another. this really shined on friday when we had the rock wall and ropes course. the girls all encouraged each other, and when i went on the ropes course for the first time ever they all cheered me on 'til the very end. it was hard to let them go, but i was ready for the next week to begin with me hopefully having 3rd and 4th graders.